Husband and the Battle of Addiction
12 Sep 2017
The words that have yet been spoken,
the things I need to say,
To voice what's within my heart,
I just can't find a way.
I've fought with my emotions,
I've held them deep inside.
I didn't want to face what for so long
you've tried to hide.
I've been lost within the dark
for so long I've seen no light.
Holding on to the memory
of a time when things were right.
I've looked upon your face
and seen the sadness in your eyes.
The battle of addiction
you no longer can disguise.
I've prayed to find the answers
of what I myself must do.
And I've prayed for the strength to fight
through the hell that I go through.
I've held on for so long,
but I can no longer watch you die.
I cannot fight this for you,
but lords knows how I've tried.
It's just so hard to watch the ones you love
slowly slip away.
That's why I just blocked it out
and held on to yesterday.
I don't have all the answers
or the power to save your soul.
You're broken, lost and lonely,
and I cannot make you whole.
This fight is yours and yours alone
no matter what I do,
For I cannot save you.
The only one who can
is you.
Julie